Week 23

I can't believe I am almost to 6 months already!  Time just keeps marching on.  Every week I feel like I am changing-in so many ways.  This has been one incredible journey so far.  I started at the very lowest point and feel like I am making my way to the top.  I am much more confident, happy, and vibrant.  I can do so much more and be so much more.

One thing that makes me wonder is why people are suddenly noticing that I am alive.  People who don't normally give me the time of day are having conversations with me-even acting interested in what I have to say.  I find this refreshing, yet sad in a way because I am very much the same person as I was 75 pounds ago.  I will be the same person when I lose another 75 pounds.   My body might be different, but my mind is not.

On the opposite side of this..I have lost a few close friends-for reasons unknown.  I have learned that not everyone can handle it when someone close to them loses weight, and that is ok.  I don't make a big deal about surgery or talk too much about it unless I am asked for this very reason.   I might have to be proud silently, but I am still proud.  I don't have to like losing friends, but I have to accept it.

It feels like a very lonely road lately, but it helps to think of the few who do care genuinely-I am thankful for them in every way.   They know who they are :)

I seem to be in a food funk too. I don't feel like eating. Nothing sounds good,tastes good, or looks good.  I could just live off protein shakes and soup because I just dont care right now.  Even that is a challenge to get in. I guess in reality,to someone who is addicted to food, this is a good thing.  But it is not so easy when you have protein goals to meet.  I make sure to stay hydrated and get the bare minimum of protein for the time being.  I have been surfing Pinterest to try and spark some kind of food love but it doesn't work.  I hope the food funk passes soon and I can get back to eating properly.
Boy..this post is just full of sunshine today!!

Really though, below the surface I am happy.  I am having fun shopping,except when it comes to pants.  I got rid of 4 trash bags of too big clothes and was able to bless a few different people with some "new"  things to wear.  I replaced some underwear again with smaller sizes, and I even have a pair of shoes that I bought last year that are too big!  My rings have to stay at home until I get to goal so I can have them resized.  So many cool changes are happening that have nothing to do with the number on the scale.

Speaking of that.....I lost 75 pounds!!  

I have not been this low since I was pregnant for number 2.  I was very,very sick during most os that pregnancy and was 275 when I found out.  I lost 20 pounds before I started feeling better.  Lowest weight in 7 years...feels pretty good!

I am hoping for some renewed eating desire this week, and preparing for the big day next week!  I will leave you with a picture: