I still...

I have made it to week 8!   Where did the summer and the time go?  8 weeks ago when I was sitting in the prep area waiting for surgery, I never thought I would get this far, this fast!  

Sunday was a BIG day for me!   I made it to 40 pounds lost!  Sometimes I feel like I am a "slow" loser, but when you average things out..5 pounds a week is fantastic and something to be proud of!

Not every day is easy though.  I still:

1. Have cravings.  Now that my stomach is healed getting back to normal, I find that I still have cravings.  My head wants certain things that USED to taste good.  Only now, they don't have that kind of power. Things don't taste right- I can taste things 100 times more than I could before.  I still struggle with eating the right thing every time. The little devil one one shoulder says...come on..you can have a little.  The angel on the other shoulder says now, now...you know what this will do to you!   I have to make the right decision every time.  Because I don't want to screw this up!

2. Have hunger.  The first month or so,I forgot what hunger felt like and it was great.  Now I am hungry every 2 or 3 hours.  And really hungry in the morning.  I welcome this now, and feed my little stomach many times a day.

3. Have issues with temptation at the grocery store.  This is a big one.  Addiction is so hard to control mentally...There is nothing that tastes as good to me as losing weight though, so I push through and when I get done, I feel like I have conquered the world!  It is much faster to shop these days too.  I can skip the majority of the inner aisles and bakery.  .

4. Inadvertently guzzle water.  You would think I would be used to this, but I still grab my water and chug away without thinking.  Then the pain begins and I am reminded that I do have a slim stomach and I can't do that.  Always learning the hard way!

I still have a long way to go in my journey, but I am still grateful for where I am now and I am thankful for where I came from!  This is by far the best thing that has happened to me and I couldn't be more happy.

I have a big 2 days coming up away from home and it will be interesting to see what comes of the whole eating out dilemma.  I am checking out menus and trying to decide ahead of time what will work.  I am not going to stress out over anything, all I can do is my best and enjoy the time alone with my hubby.  There will be lots of walking involved too!  Big bonus!