Week 12

Week 12....what do I say about week 12?  Actually I don't know where to start because this week has been so weird,good yet bad at the same time.  This week has been a roller coaster of wins and defeats.

Let's start with the wins!

1:   I walked!     Yes...I got up on my lunch hour from work training for 3 days and walked 2 miles each day.  It may not be much...but it felt GREAT.  Sore hips are a good feeling.  They probably didn't know what hit them!  This is a good step in the right direction....pun intended!

2.   I didn't have any diarrhea!  Nuff said!

3.   I made my water/fluid goals every day.  I think I need MORE than 64 oz, but I at least got up to that much consistently.  I can't even fathom trying to get more water in.  I would not be able to eat if I did.

4.  I took myself shopping,tried on some clothes, but opted for a little special something for myself instead as a reminder of how far I have come and where I am going.  It is a charm bracelet--every little spacer has 6 circles on it that represents 6 pounds..so there are 4 between each number.  I have room for another 24 pounds and one 75.  Then I start a new bracelet for the final 75!   I am going to get a different chain though-I kept feeling like I was going to lose this one.  Every time I look at it, I think yeah..50!!! instead of "only" 50.  Can't wait to put the next 6 pound slider on there.

    

The downside to this week:

1.  It is my "losing" week...and I didn't lose a single ounce.  For the most part I have had an open mind about this and have been patient, but I can honestly say I was a little bummed.  Maybe things will adjust next week with the extra hydration that I have been working on, and the walking.

2.  I feel fat.  Yes...of course I am still fat, but I feel like it this week.  I feel fluffy and puffy.  This might have something to do with my bad attitude towards the scale,or hormones, or both.  Even though I dont have "that" time of the month anymore, I still ovulate.  I have no idea when that actually happens but it does, so I will just chalk it up to hormones and move forward.

3. I ate more carbs than I would like to this week-especially today.  I had a wedding shower to go to, and I should have brought my own food.  I had meat on a bun and that was the best I could do.  I would have eaten the meat and cheese alone, but it was a certain kind of meat that really grosses me out to just eat it plain and I really cannot stand individually wrapped cheese slices.  So I put the meat on the bun and added a little mustard to help the bread go down.  Lesson learned.  I need to learn how to bring my own things and not be self-conscious about it.  If it was my family I would not care, but it was my husband's.   I had a little risotto rice earlier in the week, and a few sweet potato puffs that we ate with burgers.  These little creeps of carbs are a dangerous slope for me and might be the reason why I feel fat too.  I am so intolerant of starches...even just a few bites.  I always have been, but I mostly ignored it.

Moving ahead for the new week, I am going to be a good, clean eater...keep up the walking, and I am challenging myself to ditch the scale until Friday!    Think I can do it?  It is harder than it seems!  I will leave you with a 12 week picture.   Thanks for reading!